I don't sing in church anymore. I don't just mean solos and special musical numbers (even though I did one of those once here and it was horrible and I did not feel good about it at all); I mean all singing. Not even the congregational hymns. I don't know why; it's not like I'm deliberately rebelling against something in church by staying silent.* I just physically can't sing. I can't even bring my mouth to open to let the music out. It's almost as if something is holding me back. Like I have wings, but can't spread them. I can sing just fine in other venues (e.g., the shower or my living room to YouTube karaoke tracks), just not in church.
What's that all about? And do you think it's permanent?
*Okay, I actually do do this during the hymn "Love at Home." But come on, it's kind of insensitive to make people who don't have super happy eternal families sing this.
This is perhaps the saddest thing I've ever heard. Congregational singing is the only thing that gets me to church some weeks. :(
ReplyDeleteIt's because I stole your song when I became relief society chorister and now have to sing in relief society. Unfortunately for the Mormon single females in Baltimore, I did not steal your vocal talents.
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