A Swift Kick in the Bum

I had this thought/epiphany/emotional breakthrough last night.  I need to create my own inciting force, I think.  Unfortunately, I have no idea how to do that, but I feel that it might very well have to start with an attitude adjustment.  So here goes...

I am going to stop

• constantly questioning whether or not I made the right choice by coming here.  First of all, I'm 83% sure that the answer to that question is "yes," and secondly, even if I didn't make the right choice, I came out here and there's nothing I can do about it.
• living in the past and wondering what I could have done differently or better. 
• reminiscing and replaying little moments of varying significance for the purpose of hiding and seeking solace in past memories/emotions.  This is a big thing that needs to change:  what has to be so wrong with me that I will think, hey, let me remember this really sad event so that I may make myself very depressed? Must nip that one in the bud.
• worrying about things that are no longer in my control and people of whom I am not the boss.
• hiding out in church from people I'm afraid to be friends with because I'm afraid that saying goodbye is going to suck as much as it did when I said goodbye to people in Boston.

If I find myself doing any of these things, I am going to force myself out of it, possibly with a by-myself dance party.

This said, I reserve the right to

• be sad sometimes and cry when nobody is watching.
• curse Hawaii, especially when people on the bus are stupid.
• get jealous when my old friends start hanging out with people who are cooler than me.
• miss people.  Specific ones, not just people in general.
• decide that this thought/epiphany/emotional breakthrough was just a phase or a product of undigested celery or something and take it all back.