Some Babbling

NOTE: This is going to be unstructured and scattered. If you're looking for amazing writing, read a different post.

I feel like I have to explain myself sometimes, but I also feel like the people to whom I feel the need to explain myself might find my explanations unnecessary or out-of-line, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to say what I want to say...however unstructured and scattered it might be.

You might not be able to tell by these sentences I'm writing, but I like structure. I like rules. I like boundaries. I believe we have roles in life and in relationships and I believe there are rules as to how we should behave in each situation and with each person we encounter. I don't like feeling like I've crossed any lines. Consequently, sometimes I pull back; I avoid the confusion that comes with blurring the lines between the casual and the careless, the friendship and the flirtation. Sometimes this makes me seem cold or unfriendly, but I would much rather be guarded than guilty.

I'm not going to write about the implications of this, even though I know they exist. That wasn't the part that I needed to explain. And I know I promised to go without a depressing post for longer than this, so I'm sorry...I promise my next blogging adventure will be about marshmallows or something.